I found out the grade for my thesis today.
My first reaction was to call my mum. Because that's what I normally would've done in a situation like this. And she would have made everything well again. But I couldn't do that so I called my older brother and cried and cried and cried on the phone. And used more swear words than I had ever done before.
Apparently I'm a big academic joke.
And I was dreaming of St Andrew's.
Oh M! I feel as though I've just been kicked in the stomach too. Shall I go kick a few people in the shins?
ReplyDeleteM, I'm saddened that your thesis was not given the grade it deserved, but you are not a big academic joke. Not in the least. You are dedicated and you work hard, very hard. You are one of the most studious, intelligent academics I know. You are justifiably discouraged but I know you will continue on this life long endeavor of academia and you will continue to provide highly valuable contributions to it. Take heart, my friend. - K. from California
ReplyDeleteI have absolutely no reason to believe that my paper didn't get the grade it deserved. I know both my markers and I know how well and seriously they do their job. So there's no reason, actually no right to kick anyone. The thing that shocks me about it is that I was completely oblivious to the fact that I was producing such bad writing. After being awarded with three distinctions and four scholarships (I only know this because I wrote my cv last week haha!) suddenly I'm complete rubbish. THAT's what I can't get my head around just yet.
ReplyDeleteBut thank you for your kind words anyway. I do appreciate them, very much so!