No-one has their vacation in the end of October in Estonia. Everyone's off to holidays in July when the sea is warm and the days are endless and the strawberries are ripe. October over here is cold and damp and dark - not exactly one's holiday dream. But the things turned out the way they did - I. was on holiday during the summer and then he attended the GC in Texas which meant that I had to be in the office and work. So the only option for me was to take my weeks off in October and November.

First it made me sad. This can't possibly be a real vacation! What am I suppose to do? Where to go? I thought about going to Newbold again but then I was like, It's not like anyone's actually waiting for me there. So I dismissed this plan. Then I called a good friend and asked her if she had time to go on a trip to somewhere warm with me. But in the end the dates didn't suit her so we had to cancel those plans as well. It looked very much like I was going to be stuck in Estonia.

But then I changed my mind. I made a decision - I am going to prove myself and everyone else that one can have a good vacation and enjoy it to the fullest. Even in Estonia. Even in the end of October. Even without a good friend to travel with me.

And so it is. I'm going to have an awesome time as my vacation starts tomorrow morning. I've talked to my dear cousin who has promised to give me his lake house for the whole week - we're going to drive up to South tomorrow morning and then they're going to leave me there for the week and we'll meet again the following weekend when they come back. I have 6 days all to myself in a lovely house quite literally the middle of nowhere. When I look at my suitcase and think of the stuff I'm planning to take with me, it puts a big smile on my face - I'm taking some warm clothes, my bathing suit (as soon as my health is good enough I'm going to engage in some Octoberswim), some of the books Dr A. N. brought me, my camera, chocolate, some candles. I'm leaving my computer home, no school books, no preaching plans, no hermeneutics papers. Sounds like a vacation to me! :)

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To those who've contacted me over the past days and asked about my health - a big thank you! I'm not well yet but I'm feeling much better. I've been able so sleep again. And although my mind is still fragile and my body exhausted, it does look like the worst is over. I think after the week in the lake house I'll be back in business.

Some good mood music - Hozier's Someone New.